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Jan. 23rd, 2012

I’ve been in a bit of a funk lately. It has to do with stress, lack of sleep, a little Too Much of Everything Nonstop, and no silence. There’s just been so much chaos. Too much and too much. Today, someone I love lost someone they love a week and a half after her mother had a stroke, and I was heartbroken for her. It cast a pall on everything.

So, in order to break the cycle tonight, I just sat down and started listening to music. I listened to everything I love most stacked back to back for hours. And then I hit Wuthering Heights, and I just wept. I wept over loss and grief and heartbreak and fear of loss and grief and heartbreak, and it was the expression of a sort of sorrow that I haven’t allowed myself to feel in years. I don’t even know if it was cathartic. It just happened because it had to.

It sometimes feels like I haven’t taken a deep breath in years. Guess I took that deep breath tonight. And Kate Bush gave it to me.





I’ll always be in love with Kate Bush.

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strangemodegirl
Jan. 24th, 2012 03:03 pm (UTC)
(((hugs)))
She has that effect. That's one of the reasons why I love her. Her voice makes me weak in the knees as well.

You and Ted need to take a week away. Seriously, how long has it been since you guys took a real vacation?
Wish I could wave a magic wand for you and make all the stress disappear. xoxo
cielamara
Jan. 24th, 2012 08:29 pm (UTC)
Kate Bush is very easy to be in love with. I completely understand.

Vienna Teng and SJ Tucker seem to understand how I feel a lot of the time these days.
windbourne
Jan. 25th, 2012 12:41 am (UTC)
Yay for SJ Tucker. :) I have done many drawings related to her music--she is wonderful.
windbourne
Jan. 25th, 2012 12:33 am (UTC)
Cloudbusting is one of my personal Intensely Cathartic songs. <3 But she is always love.
agameofthree
Jan. 25th, 2012 05:13 pm (UTC)
One of my f-list just posted this -- a friend of hers helped with the animation and shooting. You've probably already seen it, but if you're having another bad day, maybe it'll help cheer you again. Hopefully it will even if you're not having another bad day! :)

kebechet
Feb. 3rd, 2012 07:50 am (UTC)
That is WONDERFUL! Thank you so much for sharing it!
charaxinae
Jan. 26th, 2012 05:58 pm (UTC)
Kate has saved more lives than I can count- she is untouchable and a blessing to the world.
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